No list of links again this week but rather a personal observation on Why Being Healthy Is Better Than Not Being Healthy. Because clearly science isn't enough.
So, a little experiment that started off as a hormonally-induced fall from grace but well... it's all a bit chicken/egg.
Mid-month we had Evie's birthday party and there was gorgeous pizza and cake and I ate some. It made me feel a bit rough but hey, I'm not putting huge pressure on by being all about denying myself stuff so onwards and upwards. Then later that week, BAM. Hormones from hell. Haven't had that happen in a while. Coincidence or..? And I had two weeks of it to look forward to, and worse, so did Charlie and Evie. I tried, I really did, but by mid-week last week I had caved to the medicinal qualities of a bar of Galaxy (which worked a treat for an hour or so) in the hopes of not having my family change the locks while I was at work. I wouldn't have blamed them. I was watching this Possession by She-Hulk happen, powerless to stop her raging, and horrified.
One bar of chocolate led to several because that's how the sugar roller-coaster works, no? Then a pile of Marmite sandwiches made with sliced white bread because that was what I lived on from 1977 to 1980, pretty much exclusively, and hormonal me believes they make me feel better. See also: filling Twitter with links to Elvis Costello songs. One day I was so befuddled I left my packed lunch at home and even though Charlie heroically drove it over to me, by then I had fallen prey to the office coffee machine's infamous 'cappuccino mix' which is a tasty blend of (it says on the box) milk powder, potato starch (one of my 5 a day?), sugar and mysterious flavourings. It made me feel so sleepy that I had to have another coffee. And another. You see the evil plot?!
At some point during the week, driven half by curiosity and half by gargantuan levels of self-justification, high on sugar, dairy and assorted crap, I decided to roll with it and see what happened and how quickly.
The results are in and it's not pretty.
- After weeks without needing them I had to take two migraine pills over the weekend.
- Let's not talk about my digestive system.
- I am kinda...itchy, all over.
- I have not run in eight days yet every joint in my body - the same joints that do not hurt when I run - is giving me gyp today. My hips, my back, my arms. Oh and I have toothache.
- My mental processes are shot to near ADHD-like levels.
- I think I am absolutely the worst person on earth.
- What's the point in anything?
- I just want to go to bed and stay there.
- Sinuses. 'Nuff said.
- I am four pounds heavier than I was 10 days ago. FOUR POUNDS.
I have read that for many people, clearing out the rubbish from your diet - especially foods for which you have an intolerance <cough>dairy</cough> - reintroducing them in anything more than minute amounts can be a bit of a knockout blow. Friends, I am here to say that I agree. I am, metaphorically for now anyway, on the floor. Throwing in the towel.
I want my shiny good health and energy back. Because I know it's there now. I know it's only a matter of eating 100% plant-based and letting my body move for a week before I feel all shiny again.
So that's the motivation for this coming week. And the next. And the next. I think I may be well on the way to understanding, finally, that the whole chocolate/dairy/sugar thing is not 'A Treat'. It's way more of 'A Threat'.
Here's a good link: if you're interested in trying out the healthy stuff you could do a whole lot worse than get yourself over to FMTV.com where they're offering a 10 day free trial of their subscription programme. FMTV has a whole range of health and wellness films and documentaries (not to mention books, interviews, classes etc). I highly recommend this one as a starter, it's much much better than the trailer would perhaps have you think.
Have a great week. x