There aren't too many people reading this blog, I know. My discontent with my blogging at the end of last year had me changing everything around again and I'm glad I did but it disrupts the flow. Disrupting flow is not good.
Anyway the fact is, I'm feeling a very strong call to retreat from the online world for a while. I did a little experiment in less social media back in January and it was transformative. Until February when I went back. The obvious correlation between my inner peace and my distance from the internet verges on the bleedin' obvious. At least for now. I am nothing if not changeable.
So, I am going to step back and stay offline. I'm keeping my email open because daily life requires it. I'm taking Twitter off my phone and deleting my unloved Facebook page. I am not going to think 'I could blog this' about anything. I love instagram and could always just post one pic a day BUT my issue is not with my pictures, it's with the way I fall into endlessly scrolling through everyone else's. They are beautiful and inspiring and just plain lovely but they are a distraction I don't need. At least for now. So, I'm checking into insta-rehab. God help me.
I am checking in to my life. My partner, my child, my dogs, my garden, my home, my day job, the friends I can reach out and touch, this land I live on and its spirits that pull me deeper and deeper into Life, what it is and what it means. I have almost lost touch and just in time I am seeing that the loss of these things would kill me. The internet, not so much.
I need and want to be someone who creates and maintains her home, family and spiritual life with as high a quality of consciousness and love as she can.
Added: The great writer Peter Matthiessen recently passed away and this quote has made its way to my eyes. How perfect for this. Thank you Peter.
"I am here to be here, like these rocks and sky and snow, like this hail that is falling down out of the sun."